200張日復一日的肖像照紀錄、整理起跨越20年的實體照片、無意間聽到的1921年的故事，在這本<面對自己的怪物>，面對面對視的視線以及不同視角的文字交錯出一個空間，逐漸勾勒出視線之間存在的怪物。
這本書以連續的肖像照串連每一頁，並以雙開本的形式分成兩部分，第一部分：透過我與它合照的老照片，召喚影像中小男孩的回憶，在追溯的過程中告白與告解；第二部分：透過<棉絨兔> 1921年由Margery Williams寫下的故事，帶出作為布偶的視角，想像著你可能對我說的話。
在坦然面對彼此的過程中，我逐漸接受必須拿起針線扎進你的身體，修補起你的傷口，修補自我的虧欠。面對說不出口的脆弱與修補20年裂痕的紀錄，逐漸讓肖像照成為我的自拍照。
Facing the Monster Within is an artist book constructed through three temporal layers: two hundred days of consecutive portrait photographs, archival images spanning more than twenty years, and a story from 1921 that I encountered by chance. Through the interplay of gazes and shifting textual perspectives, the book gradually constructs a space in which the “monster” between these gazes becomes visible.
Each page is connected by a sequence of portrait images, and the book unfolds across two parts. The first part recalls childhood memories through old photographs in which I appear together with the object, allowing the boy in the image to re-emerge through acts of confession and reflection. The second part draws from The Velveteen Rabbit (1921) by Margery Williams, imagining the perspective of the stuffed bear itself and the words it might speak.
Through this process of confrontation, I gradually accept the act of piercing its body with needle and thread—repairing its wounds while attempting to mend the unspoken fragility and accumulated fractures of the past twenty years. In this way, the portraits slowly become a form of self-portraiture.
16 x 12.4 x 0.6 cm
128 pages
2025
