深陷其中 In the Abyss

《深陷其中 In the Abyss》探討生命經驗中的死亡與哀悼議題，呈現作者黃羿瑄對其爺爺黃深淵因病衰退的日常記錄。系列影像以拍立得和文字紀錄構成，由印尼看護菲菲在黃羿瑄的請託下，每日拍攝臥病在床的爺爺並書寫當下的狀態，最終累積了三十餘張影像與文字紀錄，直至爺爺辭世。隨著葬禮的結束及看護去往下個家庭，黃羿瑄搬入爺爺的住宅，從探望病患的外部者成為深陷哀悼的內部者，面對空間中相互重疊的生命碎片與記憶。於此，她重新調度所有素材，將影像的侷限性轉化為一種動態哀悼的基底，藉由書本的特性，在翻閱間，由讀者的經驗共同回應這份為倖存者所設計，帶有「向生」性質的創作。

“In the Abyss” explores themes of death and mourning within the lived experience, presenting artist Huang Yi-Hsuan‘s documentation of her grandfather Huang Shen-Yuan’s (“Shen-Yuan” in Mandarin means “abyss”), gradual decline due to illness. The series consists of Polaroid photographs paired with written records. At Huang‘s request, Feifei, their Indonesian caregiver, took daily Polaroid photos of the bedridden grandfather and recorded his condition in writing. Over time, they accumulated more than thirty photo-text records, ending with his passing.

After the funeral and Feifei’s departure to another caregiving position, Huang Yi-Hsuan moved into her grandfather’s home, transitioning from an external visitor witnessing a patient’s decline to an internal mourner immersed in overlapping fragments of life and memory within the same space. She reorganized all the collected materials, photographing traces left in the house. This process transformed the limitations of photographic representation into a dynamic foundation for mourning. By deconstructing her original written invitation to Feifei, the project invites readers to engage with the work through their own lived experiences, creating a reflective space for survival and renewal.